25 to Life

Two years ago, I recall using the monicor "big things in '06"  with huge optimism.... and that def. foreshadowed a horrific begining to a year which i still want to forget. I either learned my lesson or I was just too scared to be optimistic to start this past year. So to begin 2007, i didnt do my normal hype. I kept it low key, like Tim Allen's carear...I didn't write out my expectations for the new year and I didnt want to reflect on "ohhh 6". In retrospect maybe I should have, but '06 was so shitty for me that I didn't want to set the bar, I just kind of wanted to limbo my way through the year.  

People always say that good things happen when you least expect it.. and i really wasnt expecting much for 2007.  However, as the year chugged along, I rarely felt overwhelmed. You can just scroll down and see that i havent really written much in the past 12 months..and knowing that i basically use this forum solely to vent- that's a good thing. So overall 2007 was a pretty good year for me. Even though I don't think I achieved ANY of my goals, I feel I made a lot of good decisions which are significant building blocks towards the future.

Highlights/memories of 2007: My first promotion, Sumer of Sin- Las Vegas, Bert's party (BP CHAMPS! ...and steven jackson), trip to Chicago, "see you at the hoover dam", Kara's graduation/Sim's birthday (long beach, mets' game, Nutty), 4th of July at Raquel's, Shuffle Board, 1st Monday night football, The historic Giants game, Mountain Creek, Happy Hour, Red Lobster, Christmas Party, Scavanger hunt, Haunted Hayride trip, Wiz of Oz,  Old Westbury Radio, Thanksgiving, Victorious sports weekend.

Now that I'm 25 this is it. I dont really feel I have a lot of time to waste anymore. So with 2008 around the corner, i dont want to say "big things"... but I do hope for a little bit better. In a lot of cases, I know what has to be done, its just a matter of doing it. '08 represents a fresh start. A year which is more wide open than the legs of 1 of the Spears' sisters. 

When Im here alone and ur there at home, hello

In the words of Neil Diamond, "hello, my friend, hello".

It's been a lilttle while since I stepped up to the mic. I think i have had a long case of writer's block which is kind of pathetic considering this forum is about anything and everything. I guess I've just been waiting for a muse or that stick of dynamite. But truth be told- I'm sick of waiting. So i figured i'd find my inner Forrester and "PUNCH THE KEYS".  And, since my life is like a well that has run dry.. let me start off with a little current events.

The Mall shooting in Omaha Nebraska

The police say this kid was depressed, so he decided take a rifle to the mall and do some skeet shooting. On his suicide note he said that he wanted to "go out in style".... Well, pardon me but I belive that mass killings haven't really been "in style" since the Hitler days.  Lets be honest, Hitler had consentration camps and gas chambers...you might not like it, but that shit's impressive. It wasn't just a kid with an oozie who was pissed b/c he didnt get teddy rucksbin for x-mas. .. No, Hitler was a short  grumpy muchkin with a Charlie Chaplan mustache that controled an army of mercanaries.  Kudos and hats off. I can't even get my friends to respond back to an e-vite, and Adolf Hitler has strangers killing Jews. Thats like some David Blaine shit.

But since Hitler it's been done to fucking death (pun intended). And done poorly too i might add. This most recent attempt is one of the saddest in history. Obviously this Napolean Dynamite looking bastard put zero thought into this. I mean if your going to go to the mall and kill people- why do it randomly?  Have a fucking purpose. Do the world a favor and kill the store greeters at the Gap, Express and Aeropastle .. or get the people that pass out flyers or the vendors that are always asking "can i ask you a questions." Bang, Bang, Bang... maybe then you'll make a god damn difference in the world. But no, this dopey fuck decides to pick out of a hat. and i keep calling him names, in part b/c i dont know his real name. Aside from those who knew him in real life and those that live in his town...his name will not be remembered. He migth be top story for a day, or in the papers for a month...but thats it. He won't be remembered. Look at that Chinese nut case that killed people at his school. If I remember correctly, he did have somewhat of a purpose.. he was mad at his ex girlfriend and he prob hated the school... so he went guns a blazing. But he atleast had the foresigth to know that no1 would remember his name. So he dubbed himself "Questionmark". which would have been the same answer if someone asked me today what his real name was. But the list goes on and on... does any1 know one of the guys from the Colombine shooting? I think I'm one of the few people that even remember the unibomber let alone his name (Ted Kazinsky). So people who do this to go out in style or to be famous aren't even smart enough to realize that nomatter what they do no1 will give a shit. They end up a punch line in most comedian's sets. So really  they are are leaving as even bigger jokes as they came in. sad but true.

And honestly I dont know how I feel about suicide. A lot of people call it the cowards way out..but is it? i think you have to have a lot of moxie to end your own life. That shit takes balls. Some people call it selfish and i def. understand that. leaveing your family and friends to grieve is def. in poor taste, but if your life is so fucked up and you feel that you cant take another second..who am I to judge. Maybe they really are "in a better place".

Moving on... I'm trying to get back to where i was a few months ago, maybe even a year ago. Back on my grind. Trying to get back to the gym, and trying to be a  better me in every way possible. It's a social experiment that usually last a couple months.. but lets see how it goes.