Headstrong

Yesterday's entry was the culmination of a lot of bullshit. I had to vent a little bit but i realized that its not worth it. Bottom line is that some people just need to grow up, including myself. I gotta wake up, and smell the coffee. I cant let immaturity get the best of me anymore. I'm better than that.  "Let the garbage men handle the garbage"

Last night i went to James' house to kinda escape the head games (and to see G-UNIT before she leaves)! We wound up getting ice-cream at Coldstone and playing a board game called "Cranium". Sweet irony!!! Anyway it was a lot of fun and it cemented what i should have already known.

In the words of Tony Soprano; "To all that i love, and nothing else matters."

Today i went to my aunts house to pick up my Grandpa and bring him home. He didnt look too good to me. He seemed irritable and moody for some reason. I don't know why but i can only hope that being back home will allow him to feel like his old self. As long as his herats strong i guess everything else is secondary but id love to see him joke around again.

Funny story - when i was in the car with my aunt taking my Grandpa home, a bicyclist was riding by and we gave him the ok to ride in front of the car and hes about to thank us with his hand when he slips and plummets hard to the ground. We had no choice but to drive away and laugh about it. LOL, I guess you hada be there.

i didnt work out again today- i feel disappointed in myself. i think ill do a little excercising here but im gonna have to kick it up a notch tomorrow.

Quotables: If these walls could talk... you'd hear the sound of fat women saying, "Call me."

South Oaks

I'm in one of those moods

I dunno why i am pissed i just am. Maybe its the long day at work. Maybe its the fact i didnt workout. Maybe its cuz i ate so unhealthy today. Maybe its cuz my Grandpa still doesnt look back to normal. Or maybe i just hate life. Too many things just piss me off, so much of people's trivial bullshit. Sometimes i wish i could just go to peoples houses, knock on their door and just slug them in the face. I dream about that.

Quotables:  I'm like King Midas in reverse. Everything I touch turns to shit.

It's Been a While

I know i know, i have really been slackin with my entries lately but  I have been pretty busy with my new work out regiment. Its taken the place of my aol time. My wrist is killing me though so i might have to take it easy for a few days. its the left wrist, the one that i had surgery on so i cant screw around with it.

My 1st summer class is almost done, i only i have 1 more full week and then im done . My first test was awful- i totally blanked out on it, the second test i blanked out on 1 part and missed a whole section. So lets just say i need to do well on the final. It sux though cuz i should be running an A in this class instead ill be fighting for a B.

Other than that not too much is new.... pretty sad, right?

Quotables: "You only live once and once is enough."

Tidbits n Shits

Well its been a couple of days but their isnt too much to write about.

The most important thing is that my Grandpa looks like hes coming out of the hospital for good today. He'll be staying at my aunts house for a few days until he is able to be on his own. He's already walking better and hes got his spirits up so who can ask for more than that? I'm glad hes able to spend fathers day with his family and not at some hospital.

I think im gonna take the day off from working out. I've got 3 reasons why lol. My legs are achy,  my left arm cant fully extend, and my partner isnt workin out either. I tell ya i wish i could say i see a difference, but instead i feel it and i dont like what i feel.

I washed my car the other day. I scrubbed it, rinsed it, vacummed it, and just when i was about to take it off the driveway a bird drops me a special gift right onto the center of the hood. I swear to God i have no luck at all!

Played cards again last night- im starting not to enjoy it. Thier is always an arguement and poor Bert is always getting picked on for how he plays. Even if he loses 50 bucks hes still being criticized for how he plays. It really isnt fair.

Quotables: Women say they have sexual thoughts too. They have no idea. It's the difference between shooting a bullet and throwing it. If they knew what we were really thinking, they'd never stop slapping us.

Sore Loser

My mood today is sore. I woke up this morning, rolled over and gave a high pitched shriek. It's not an unbearable pain but its certainly not a pleasent feeling. I 'm dreading going back to work out again tonight but i really have to. I'm so far behind my friends that its embarassing. Im crappin out on 70lb weights and they are banging out 140s.

My grandpa was placed back in the hospital yesterday. He suffered a mini stroke on tuesday and just to be on the safe side he's been placed in Good Sam. hospital, I'm really thinking hes gonna be ok. Everytime i see him he looks good so thats reason enough to make me think positively.

I played cards last night and i offically lost 2 bucks (hence the title). But Tony gave me the money to make me break even. Whatta guy! The most i ever won was 67 bucks and the most i ever lost was like 45, but that was in the early days. now i keep a record of my wins and loses to see where all my money has gone. My grand total winnings is about 275.

Quotables: I would do anything to have a body like Vin Diesel, except of Course eat right and work out.

Iron Mike

This summer i planned on getting in shape, I set my goals but I never really acted on them. My plan was to work out on my own at my own pace. Well that ship has sailed. I wasnt getting any results and i was so unmotivated. Today after a half hour of convinsing James, Bert and Brad finally got me to go work out at the NYSC. Now they along with scott have been trying to get me to work out for months but i wouldnt do it but tonight they were relentless and since im a team player- i did it.I'm glad i did.

My first day was not only humbling but also embarassing. I was floppin around all over the place. Sweating buckets and my vains were poppin out like a heroine junky. I know i'm gonna need A LOT of work to get to where all my friends are, (plus the wrist injury hinders me a lot so i must be careful of that) but i want to do it. I want to look back and see great progress and laugh about how weak/ out of shape i was.

Things just got real, Mission impossible is now in place.

Quotables: I went to a general store but they wouldn't let me buy anything specific.

Home-Work

I'm writing about something today that i have been thinking about a lot recently. One of my friends brought up this topic lately and its all i've been thinking of. The topic is how people dont appreciate their parents.

A lot of kids my age are liberated. They arent bounded by rules and strict parents, they have the freedom to go anywhere and do anything but to be honest I really envy those kids. I wish my parents, my dad especially was cool enough to let me do whatever. If i wanna lay out and get a tan he'd yell at me to come help him sweep the street or cultivate the dirt. If i wanted to work out hed say "help me wash these cars- that'll work u out". Basically i have little to no liberties. I am a slave at this house. I still have a curfew, i still do chores around the house every weekend and i work like a dog everyday just so i dont have to hear shit from my dad but no matter what, i always do. I go to work to relax.

Today for example, i came home from school, got a quick bite to eat then ran to CVS to drop off some pictures for my dad, went to the bank and then dropped off the tuxedos from Sat's wedding. Then came home watered the lawn as my dad came home. We went to my grandpas house to get his mail and put out the garbage. Then we came home did loads of yard work. Ate dinner. I cleaned off the table and loaded the dishwasher. yada yada yada- i didnt stop working today till 7 pm..why ?cuz thats how i was raised. Am i appreciated? probably not to the extent that i should be but i dont say anything b/c their my parents. They help me out financially, they gave me life and they give me shelter. Id go to the depths of hell for then and wouldnt expect a thank u cuz thats what kids should do for their parents.

Some people are spoiled rotten. They do nothing but bitch and complain about the lack of food in the house but they dont go shooping. They complain about the condition of things in the house but they never pick up a hammer or a screwdriver. Its one thing to be allowed to do whatever but when u dont appreciate the freedom ur parents have given u- thats a horse of a diffrent color. Now maybe b/c i dont have any freedom- thats why i feel so strongly about this but i think every1 should feel the same way.

Quotables: A girl phoned me the other day and said... Come on over, there's nobody home. I went over. Nobody was home.