What next?

Alright, i have a lot to say so i might be all over the place but just try and stick with me if u can. The running theme is "what next" so if u get it, u get it, if not- dont worry about it.

I'm not in the best of moods tonight cuz i had a really hard final today and im actaully questioning my ability to pass the class. I always strive for a high GPA but some classes are brutal and u just hope to pass.  For me, anything involving math is like kryptonite. I despise it! SO if i can pass ill take whatever grade i can get. A c is my lowest grade i have received at Hofstra but i'm praying for a D. I'm stressing out about this and if i do fail i know its not the end of the world but i will bitch and moan about it like it is. We'll have to see what happens.

Anyway I saw a blast from the past the other day at Hofstra . Erica Downey was getting her cap and gown the same time i was. I always liked Erica as a person. Shes got a sweet and plesant personality, and she would always say hello, which seems stupid but when ur a geek like me it mens a lot. So we got the talking and shes going for her masters in queens and getting married in like 2 weeks and she seems to have everything going for her then she asked me what i've been up to and i was like 'umm i play cards and work at Saf-t-swim". It kind of sounded a lot cooler in my head. I am so eager to start a new chapter of my life because the previous pages might have well have been left blank.

I went to Adelphi's Senior Formal Dance in the Hamptons on Friday night with Angelica from work. It wasn't a date but rather me being nice and going cuz i know she reallly wanted to go plus it was a good way to prepare for the prom.I dint know any1 which i was happy about. The dance itself was ok - ang's friend was cool and her b/f was nice too so i was able to chill with them at times. He got trashed though and i had to take them home once we got back to li...i wasnt happy about that.  A few key notes. 1-  Adelphi is not nearly as nice as Hofstra. 2- Adelphi chix: EHHH! 3- Bon Jovi is still the shit. 4- People don't know when to say when. It was open bar and the night eneded sooo much later than it was supposed to b/c the bus rides were delayed due to some asshole chicks being too drunk to even stand..yelling and screaming at each other. One of the girls had to be physically restrained and eventually escorted of the bus. Everyone was heckling the lushes (including myself) and she left the bus to a standing ovation. Then the bus was delayed again cuz people were smoking on the bus. I swear people are just friggen assholes. All in all the nite was ok but i was fed up cuz it was too long i got home close to 5 am with work at 9.

I'm trying to take off from work on sat. I got a speeding ticket to try and get out of. then i got my graduation the next day so i just wanna chill this weekend. Not to mention i got to find a ledge to jump off of if i fail finance.

You know what i hate: exagerations. Everyone uses them from time to time, i even did it with my last sentance but some people do it too freakin much. I dont wanna name any names here but i have a friend, we shall call him James Herierro just to protect his identity. Well my friend, Mr Herrero, called me one day cuz we were supposed to go to the movies that night. He called me cuz he was stuck at school and he said he had to cancel our plans cuz his cousin, we'll call her Melissa Boffman, (again protecting the identities), was going to pick him up and then go to the hospital to visit his father. He then says to me, u know what forget it- ill go see the movie with you...just come pick me up at school. Well i said no thats alright, to be honest im not comfortable driving to there (cuz i've never driven there before) and i didnt wanna take him away from his family cuz thats more important than a movie (although it was sin city). Anway the conversation ended with him saying to me and i quote: "alright buddy, im sorry i kind of ruined your night". So then i go online and another friend, we shall call him Andrew Zirenda IMs me and asks me to go to the movies..so i said alright, y not...Next thing i know Mr. Herrero is telling everyone within the sound of his voice that i stranded him at school, which is complete and utter hogwash considering he canceled on me. Now i dont wanna start an arguement cuz i know fighting with him his a winless battle plus its not that big of a deal cuz everyone already knows that driving has never been my thing. If he needed me to pick him up at his house and take him somewhere i'd gladly take the trip (i dunno about gladly but i'd do it). Anywya i've spent to much time on this topic already and I still dunno if u really got the jist of the story here.Just know that i hate exagerations and if u find urself exagerating to the point where its become a bold face lie thenu deserve to get slapped in the face with a tube sock filled with loose change. thats all.

I have been eagerly anticipating this summer. I've actally labeled it the summer of excitement because i have only 2 more summer classes (i hope!!!) Than its off to the real world. I have this vision of myself in 10 years walking off the train, pausing, and looking at the big city with a smile on my face and a briefcase in my hand getting ready to work. I als have this vision of getting railed in the ass- because that was one of the gayest statements u'll ever hear from me. But anyway i'm sure my story book dreams will shatter like a glass bottle in a bar room brawl. I know whatever i'll end up doing will not be what makes me happy and ill spend the rest of my life wishing i became a dentist or something. And thats what i fear the most. Money is nice but its not my determining factor. I dont crave big and fancy toys. my dream car is a pt cruiser and when i was a kid i wanted to own a drug store and sell gum rather than most kids who wanted to be an astronaut, pilot, or even president. I just want to go to work and be happy and fuck the rest. As long as i can get by -i'll make it work i just want happiness.

Quick Yankee note- Jason Giambi should be shot in the face with a bazooka! I wish the yankees would sell him for a bag of crackerjacks and a snack to be named later. He's awful, in fact hes below that. Yeah hes got like a 8 game hitting streak but they are some of the most pathetic hits possible. The only hit i'd like to see from him is when he hits the ground after a sniper takes him out at home plate. But toher than that GO YANKS!

I ordered my tux for prom.  Its a standard black tux with a white shirt. I ordered a blue vest but its either dicontinued or some shit so now i gotta go back and pick out another vest..last time i ordered a tux there they f'd up the vest too.

I had my last class with my Hofstra hunny yesterday. It was a very sad occurance, we took our final and she finished first so she said good bye but then we met up again in the comp lab and we said our goodbyes for what could be the last time...tear. SHe said shes gonna find me at graduation and i hope so cuz i have no friends to sit with and id want my last memmories of hofs to be with her. SHe's going to law school in florida after she graduates so it prob. will be the end of a nice realtionship but she meant a lot ot me cuz i thought all hofstra people were assholes till i took retail management. I got stuck in a group with complete opposites but we all clicked and everytime i see those jokers i stop and say hi. they changed my whole hofstra experience, especially her...so i'll be sure to thank her for that when i see her if not she'llbe getting a lengthy email or a phone call - who knows.

I think that pretty much covers the nuts and bolts of whats going on in my life..anything else i'll keep u posted but till then enjoy the summer of excitement..the heat is ON!