A Tale For The Ages..

If this seems familair..it is..

They say with age comes wisdom, well that might be true but I've also noticed that age also brings with it personality changes. For one, I am not as patient as I was say 5 or 6 years ago. My "old man" has a tendency to fly off the handle a little too often for my liking and he admittedly has lost his patience in his older years. So if I'm losing my patience now, I can't imagine myself in 20 years from now. My older brother never had any patience, so I really shutter to think what he'll be like. One thing is for certain, my kids are fucked!

On the other hand, I look at what pisses me off now and I wonder how i put up with it for so god damn long. I think i used to have the patience of saint and now I'm less forgiving and more into making people accountable for their actions.. For better or worse, thats how it is. For instance, my parents ask me to do shit and I just feel like I'm getting ass raped. Obviously I'm still living in their house (rent free) so I certainly should contribute and respect their rules..but I also tend to think that I should be allowed a little more libirties with my older status and full time occupation. I guess thats under their disgression but I'm becoming more cognant of it. It's also a matter of me not taking as much guff as I used to. At first I thought it was a phase..but the phase never ended..I no longer want to listen to 2 faced, double talk. Nore do I feel the need to entertain Stupidity, Immaturity, Gossip, Spite, and Nonsencical Bullshit .. thats low class high school shit. The only drama I want in my life are the ones in my DVD library. Everything else, "come what may" but I'm not going to constantly try and put out fires that are being started by the douche-bag next to me holding a blow torch and a gasoline can.  I just don't repect stuff like that.

And "respect" is something that has always been big with me...I guess its the Italian in me. The word "respect" in a lot of ways represents my reason for living. As you know, respect is gained and lost daily. I'm constantly trying to gain my own self respect by handling every situation with dignity and class. I hope that 1 day when people look back at me they will me view me in a similar manner, and by that,  respect me for what I stood for. But I feel like my self discipline seems to erode when I'm faced with a situation which I deem as rude, childish or blatently disrespectful. The situation seems to get the best of me and my mood is more volatile. I try and make the est of a bad situation, but my displeasure is obvious and visable to all.

All and all I know no-one is perfect.. and being the same age as alot of my friends, I see changes in them as well. I know I'm not alone in the process of self fulfillment. I guess for me, I'm just at an age where patience meets respect..