Fundamentals

Its time once again to get my learn on lol. I only had 1 class today and i was let out early but this session isn't gonna be a cake walk, no sir. I already know i have 2 projects/presentations this semester which sucks huge..elphant sized balls but whatever, its unavoidable, i just hope thats all i have. I'd much rather write a 10 page paper than do a whole presentation on crap i have no interest in. The teacher was a little on the lame side aka Chinese but im willing to over look it because i have a good heart and a will to learn. Oh and 1 other special reason....my love/crush/ i dont have an iceberg's chance in hell with but i consistantly torture myself into raising my self esteeem & thinking i could have a shot even though i KNOW its impossible cuz shes outta my league chick..... is in this class...oh and i sat next to her and even formed some sentances. yah for me lol.

This is gonna sound gay...(but then again, i have an aol journal...what doesnt sound gay?) but anyway i bought some (2) books online today and im pretty excited about it. The books are still pricey but im sure its cheaper than Hofstra's bookstore where i spent an astronomical amount of money last semester and i didnt even get all my books!I dont know how long shipping takes but im willing to wait it out..unless of course i need the book by next class and im screwed.. I'll keep u posted.

It's official...weds nite is awful for TV... i like King of Queens but if thats the highlite, im sorry something is wrong. I cant watch american idol and still call myself a man, and simple life is entertaining but i need options damn it. i dont even have yankee baseball yet... lord help me if i get a hobby instead of TV.

Quotables: "According to a brand new scientific study that just came out; more than 90% of diet plans used by Americans do not work. The American scientists conducted the study by looking out the window"

The break/brake

I can best be described by 3 attributes: competitive, frugal, and ugly. In the interest of time lets just talk about the 1st two. Competitiveness: Once i get involved with something I refuse to lose. ..until it becomes evident that i have no shot at being sucessful. I take games and contests way too seriously....unfortunately my genes (thanks mom and dad) prevent me from having even a hint of athleticism which left me with a painful childhood. When it came to sports I was like the little engine that could..except with an unhappy ending. "I think i can...i think i can....oh wait- i cant". SO i guess im more like the little engine that couldnt. But anyway i have since learned to shy away from sports b/c it only ends with humiliation and heartache. Thats why i retired from bowling...i used to go every week for like 6 months straight and when i was still hovering at around 100 i decided to call it quits. Even with sports teams like the jets and yankees i get so wrapped up in them during the season that i almost have to avoid all sharp objects when they lose.My frugalness is hard to explain. when it comes to other people i dont mind shelling out money but for myself i always rough it out. It's a big joke with my family but they dont understand that i work at saf-t-swim for peanuts. i just get enough money to pay for gas and 2 days worth of food and thats about it. So with poker i have tried to find a way to combine the two atributes. Be competivitve and dont lose money- and for a while it worked but i have hit a serious skid recently. So i think im gonna take definite break even if its just for 1 week.

With the weather getting really frigid and school creeping closer and closer, its time to go back to normalcy. I am certainly not ready to go back to school next week but i definately feel like i need some direction - i cant keep going to sleep at 3 and waking up at 11 or 11:30. This was the first break that i have had in a long time...i usually jump on oppurtunities to take winter/summer classes cuz i wanna get a jump start on my future..although im still graduating late. Anyway this semester hopefully wont be too bad. i do know a couple of people in my classes so thats always a good start.

My brother looks like he needs another surgery on his foot. one bone healed faster than the other which hindered the complete healing process so they mite have to shave off part of the bone and take out a couple screws. its gonna be another ordeal so i dont wanna worry about it i just hope it all worx out.

The Jets loss was rough but im not devistated like most jets fans. Every1 thought the jets didnt even deserve to be there. but they shut up all the critics. they beat the chargers and they stood toe to toe with the stealers for over 4 quaters and had a couple oppurtunities to win. Thats all u can ask for. They'll be back next yr.  Everyone is now predicting the patriots/eagles in the superbowl. SO now im going to be bold and say stealers/eagles..in the super bowl. god i hope im right.

At a Loss for words

I'm back from my brief stay in Atlantic City. The trip wasnt a financial success for me, infact it was more like a fiscal disaster but through it all i still managed to have a good time.  I went there with high hopes and dreams of coming back a wealthier man and being able to quit my job but i wound up losing pretty much everything i had...the last day i was asking bums for money. My last entry said that i'm a whore for the jersey shore but now im considering whoring myself  to make back some money. I really did have a good time though, whenever im away from long island im a happier man lol.

I learned a lot on this trip. For instance, I realized that you can't beat the house. Even if u do win ur certainly going to come back and eventually lose it all. I also learned that Bert snores louder than a nuclear explosion...sleeping in atlantic city is hard enough but its even harder when ur in the room with a hibernating bear. i swear to christ the room was shaking everytime he let out an un-Godly snore. One of the funniest things on the trip happend when Bert was sleeping. Picture bert sound asleep..then picture him getting nailed by a flying Bible aka Gods words lol. Good job scott! I also learned what a gernade fart is. Not to mention that Scott has a mistress. Scott doesnt just have lady luck on his side he has been baging her for several years! Everytime he makes a risky bet she takes care of him. The guy is 4 for 4 on 100 dollar bets, its incredible.The last and final thing i learned is that winning is fun, losing inst but the real fun for me is just being with my friends. The last trip was highlited by all of us with Limo Bill- the crazy drunken philosopher. This trips highlight was the time spent together in the room raggin on berty. At the risk of sounding like a cast member on step by step: i guess what i really learned is that im truely rich cuz of my friends..tear, tear. 

Thats all i can really say..anything more- u hada be there.

- here is a picture of the room which was under my name which was anihilated by my "friends" who also lied to me..yea im truely rich...bastards!!! 

im a whore for the jersey shore

The highlight of 2004 was definately my trip to Atlantic City and what better way to start off the new year with ANOTHER TRIP TO AC!! Jan 9th through 11th we are heading down to jersey to play with the big boys. No reservations, no planning, just a couple of buddies and the will to win. Its shaping up to be great. Scotty, Bert, brad wildes, and myself are definates Ant is a maybe and james and mike are doubtfuls but hey it could happen. Anyway im pumped- took my days off and i am set. More on this as i find out.

I got my dental appt scheduled for sat- its going to be horrific as usual. Nothing like women with needless taking out their agressions on a helpless male victims teeth. and why do they also ask such lengthy questions- yes or no questions should only be allowed. i cnat tell u about my new yrs with tubes on my mouth and blood pooled around my tonsils.

Anywya thats all i got- its bed time