Got My Mind Right

Got my mind right, money right,  ready for war- AC was MURDAAAAAAAAA! hahaha financially it was murder but atleast i got my mind right. Still..if i was black i'd have to say "the trip be fuckin' off the chains, know what im sayin', poppin' like u know what im sayin', for real fo sure."...eh  know what i'm saying?

First things first. I just skimmed my last couple of entries and i am actually pretty damn embarassed. I feel as if i was acting like an over-dramatic bitch about my whole situation, but thankfully i think i finally got my head screwed on straight. Whatever happens, happens and that's it. That's my newly adopted philosophy... its comforting...kinda like a best friend . But unlike any adpted person i ever met, i love my new friend. I really do feel 10 times better about life right now.  Several things helped contributed to my realization, but i have to say the main contributing factor would have to be my short but insanely enjoyable weekend in AC. It was without a doubt the best weekend get away i've had in years....which isn't saying much considering i'm home more than an elderly lady on bed rest ... but I mean it, it was a hella good time. To illustrate my point, I was on the 40th floor and never once did i think about a suicide jump, so you know i was ok. (i've been on step stools before and planned my death route).

My faithful readers know better than anyone how stressed i was, but while i was away i didnt think about it once. Their is always stuff going on there- i know NYC is called the "city that never sleeps" but i think AC deserves that title. We were eating a buffet at like 4 in the morning- right before we went to bed. NyC is also called the melting pot but i think Ac also shares that title. Their is a wide variety of people in AC. You can be sitting next to a rich man in expensive suits and across from a bum with duct tape across his sleeves. Next time i go im wearing the whackiest outfit i can find cuz no1 cares!!! I think NYC should stick with its lesser known title of "the city thats grimier than a homeless man's balls." Atlantic City is grimey too but atleast the casinos are nice to look at...and they have security. I am very proud to call myself a New Yawker, dont get me wrong... and I enjoy an occasional visit into the city, but when i walk the city streets i got my wallet in 1 hand and my hammer in the other. It's a jungle out there. AC, or atleast the board walk, isnt nearly as bad.. it's busy and fast paced but its also got a calmness to it. Thats really what i went for. i like to gamble but more than anything i wanna relax and thats what AC is all about.  The trip is hard to sum up in a paragraph but i'll do it the best i can.

The trip:  I couldn't sleep much friday nite- (still havent for that matter) i was like a 4 years old on christmas eve filled with anxious anticipation for what was ahead. Scott came to pick me up at 10am but i was ready at like 8. We both were so psyched to leave long island and return to the tables.  When we fianlly arrived we met up with James..and he lead us to our room where Wildes and his friend tara were....(They had already arrived on friday). As everyone knows i dont make friends easy- so i wasn't sure about this chick but, within i'd say 8 seconds i knew this girl was cool...i'll get into that later though... So after we got settled we all walked the board walk to get our $1 pizza and 75 cent hotdogs while listening to some homless guy sing his hit song "put the money in the bucket." i'm not gonna lie- he was pretty good. I'd rather listen to him than kanye waest.. but- i dont like to gawk at homeless people, even if they are performing. For some reason i get discusted by watching it. I feel that i'd personally prefer death than to publicly beg for money and i cant see how every1 else doesnt share that same belief. So i made my way over to the other side of the board walk and waited for everyone else. Once he was done we then kinda all went our own ways and did the gambling thing. I saw the poker room and it was packed tighter than my luggage..that freaks me out. I like a dead room, i feel like too much could go wrong in a busy room. So i decided to hit the slots and baby i hit 'em hard. I, accompanied by tara, played wheel of fortune- my slot of choice. I won 125 bucks quick but little by little i gave it all back. Once we finished slottin it up, we then went back to the room and watched old school. Later that night we went to the showboat and entered a 50 dollar tournament. It was atleast an 80 man tournament (8 tables...10 people a table). I hate tourney's cuz it takes an aggressive person to win and im not that guy but i did pretty well...i lasted about 5hrs and placed 18th. Eight awayfrom the money. I'm more than pleased with that performance. Other than that it was a series of highs and lows for me. Won some, lost more, in the end i dropped a couple of bills but it was well worth it. i had a blast!! James and Scott each won a $500 tournament but no-one was a big winner.

 The reason it was so much fun was definately cuz of the group. Of course i wish all my friends made the trip, but i wouldnt substitute anyone. I was grinning like an idiot the whole time b/c of the shananagins that wildes, james and scott were doing. And that girl tara was a freakin gamer.... She didnt drag the trip down at all, besides that she was a good person...reminded me of myself...i know thats kind of a self compliment but its true. In fact, i've never met anyone i've had more in common with in my life. We even baught the same dinky 4.99 camera from CVS. She was like a fun, female version of me...I'm reminded of that seinfeld where he dates his female/bizzaro version....just we werent dating ...and i'm not funny....i guess its nothing like it.

But thats it- it was a great time. Just what the doctor ordered. We had fun and held nothing back..except Stewie who is freazing his balls off right now. An inside joke for those who were there, but not a funny 1 so dont feel left out...I really didnt wanna leave AC but unfortantely we had to. Hopefully we'll all go back soon.